I'm feel so bored today. Normally, when i was bored i will find a place to go. But today my bf is not free, he takes breakfast with me then go back to his business.
This is not the 1st day i feel so bored in this way. But nothing can help, i just can stay home and watch those drama series. A day spend in this way .. alone..
Sometimes i dunno i m fortune or unfortune to come here alone. Ofcoz i will think of this question when i was alone. Is this the life i hope for? I always asking my self.. yet come with no answer.
I watching a drama series online today, whole day.. Then when i watching the story i will find my situation is much more like what the story is. The girl is not with a good look, and she fell in love with a handsome cool policeman. And obviously the handsome guy will not chase after that normal look girl, so this is the story about the girl chase after the guy. Well at first, the guy was treat the girl like normal friend, and when he knew abt that girl is like him, he run like hell. End up, that girl know she is not compatible with him but she never give up. So the guy was so touch about what the girl has done to him. So they are together now.
What is seem so similar to my situation is when they start "pak tor". The guy always dun care about what the girl wants, think, needs and make the girl really up sad coz she feels like she is not important to him at all.
Well my situation is similar to this part of the story, sometimes i happy coz he treated me nice sometimes i sad coz i feel like i m not the most important thing that he cares. I m don't mean he treated me bad, just ....i demanding more.
Is it when u care more than the other one, they will not that cherish you as well? Depend on the situation right. Okies my case is not that worst, just sometimes some stupid mind and negative thinking will keeping run around my brain when i bored and feel so lonely.
The conclusion, i scared to be alone, i scare the feeling of lonely as everyone do. But the thing make it worst is that i m staying in a place with only a few friends. How do i live without you?
Haha back to accept all these, actually my bf was treated me nice but just i'll still bored when he is not around me, and i have nothing to do to kill my times without him. Ah, my bad. The simple thing to make me happy, is when he is with me.
